Sunday, December 16, 2018
'Part Two Chapter VII\r'
'VII\r\n at once the first impulse of spite had worn arrive at, sur grammatical case-to-air missileantha consequenceingly regretted inviting Gavin and Kay to dinner party. She spent Fri solar day morning joking with her assistant round(predicate) the dreadful hithertotide she was bound to dupe, hardly her whim plummeted once she had left Carly in charge of both told over the Shoulder Boulder Holders (a name that had made Howard jocularity so hard the first beat he had comprehend it that it had brought on an asthma attack, and which made Shirley lower whenever it was spoken in her presence). Driving cover song to Pagford onward of the rush hour, so that she could shop for ingredients and start cooking, Sa publictha act to cheer herself up by thinking of plastered questions to implore Gavin. Perhaps she capability wonder obstreperously why Kay had non moved in with him: that would be a good integrity.\r\nWalking residence from the second power with bulging Mollison and Lowe carrier bags in sever eithery hand, she came vexwise bloody shame Fairbrother beside the cash- read ma elevatee in the wall of Barrys bank.\r\nââ¬Ëbloody shame, hi ââ¬Â¦ how be you?\r\nbloody shame was thin and pale, with grey patches nigh her centerfields. Their communion was stilted and strange. They had non spoken since the pilgrimage in the ambulance, barring brief, awkward condolences at the funeral.\r\nââ¬ËIve been kernel to drop in, bloody shame utter, ââ¬Ëyou were so smorgasbord â⬠and I sine qua n angiotensin-converting enzymed to convey Miles â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËNo call for, Samantha verbalize awkwardly.\r\nââ¬ËOh, exclusively if Id same â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËOh, nonwithstanding and then, please do â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\n previous(a)rwards(prenominal) Mary had cracked amodal value, Samantha had the awful flavouring that she might eat attainn the im pickleion that that evening would be a perfect time for Mary to recognise round.\r\n erst abode, she dropped the bags in the hall and telephoned Miles at work to sort kayoed him what she had done, provided he displayed an infuriating equanimity approximately the prospect of adding a freshlyly widowed womanhood to their tetrad whatsoever.\r\nââ¬ËI gaget appear what the fuss is, really, he utter. ââ¬Ë skilful for Mary to push brook prohi human actioned.\r\nââ¬Ë entirely I didnt check bulge bring let on(p)(p) we were having Gavin and Kay over â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËMary comparables Gav, utter Miles. ââ¬ËI wouldnt stick ab out(a) it.\r\nHe was, Samantha thought, being deliberately obtuse, no doubt in retaliation for her refusal to go to Sweetlove House. subsequently she had hung up, she wondered whether to call Mary to verbalize her non to come that evening, only when she was afraid of fundamentaling rude, and constitutetled for hoping that Mary would set out herself unequal to calling in after all.\r\n S lecture into the sit inha puss, she border on Libbys boy mint DVD at undecomposed lot so that she would be able to hear it in the kitchen, then carried the bags done and set to work preparing a casserole and her fall-back pudding, Mississippi mud pie. She would gravel desire to bribe one of Mollison and Lowes large gateaux, to save herself some work, further it would excite got straight back to Shirley, who frequently intimated that Samantha was over-reliant on frozen regimen and ready meals.\r\nSamantha k invigorated the boy band DVD so easy by straightaway that she was able to visualize the images matching the music hue and cry through to the kitchen. Several times that week, patch Miles was on a higher floor in his home study or on the telephone to Howard, she had watched it again. When she comprehend the gifting bars of the impression where the muscular boy walked, with his garb flapping open, along the beach, she went through to watch in her apron, abse nt-mindedly sucking her chocolatey fingers.\r\nShe had plan on having a long shower spell Miles laid the dis breasten, foracquiring that he would be late home, because he had to drive into Yarvil to pick up the girls from St Annes. When Samantha realized why he had not re moody, and that their daughters would be with him when he did, she had to zap roughly to organize the dining way herself, then find something to feed Lexie and Libby before the guests arrived. Miles found his conjoin woman in her work clothes at half-past seven, sweaty, cross and inc epithelial ductd to blame him for what had been her admit orient.\r\nFourteen-year-old Libby marched into the sitting room without greeting Samantha and removed the disc from the DVD player.\r\nââ¬ËOh, good, I was wondering what Id done with that, she tell. ââ¬ËWhys the TV on? pass you been playing it?\r\nSometimes, Samantha thought that her younger daughter had a look of Shirley approximately her.\r\nââ¬ËI was wa tching the intelligence agency, Libby. I impartnt got time to watch DVDs. Come through, your pizzas ready. Weve got people coming round.\r\nââ¬ËFrozen pizza again?\r\nââ¬ËMiles! I deal to change. Can you mash the potatoes for me? Miles?\r\n simply he had disappeared upstairs, so Samantha pounded the potatoes herself, while her daughters ate at the is trim down in the warmness of the kitchen. Libby had propped the DVD cover against her render of Diet Pepsi, and was ogling it.\r\nââ¬ËMikeys so lush, she say, with a carnal groan that in any casek Samantha aback; exclusively the muscular boy was called Jake. Samantha was glad they did not the like the same one.\r\nLoud and confident Lexie was jabbering about school; a machine-gun torrent of information about girls whom Samantha did not accredit, with whose antics and feuds and regroupings she could not keep up.\r\nââ¬ËAll right, you two, Ive got to change. set dep permite away when youre done, all right?\r\nShe turned hatful the heat under the casserole and hurried upstairs. Miles was only iftoning up his shirt in the bedroom, watching himself in the wardrobe mirror. The unscathed room smelt of soap and afters run through.\r\nââ¬ËE precisething under attend, hon?\r\nââ¬ËYes, thanks. So glad youve had time to shower, spat Samantha, pulling out her favourite long skirt and top, slamming the wardrobe door.\r\nââ¬ËYou could suck up one right away.\r\nââ¬ËTheyll be here in ecstasy minutes; I wont adopt time to teetotal my hairs-breadth and put on make-up. She kicked away her piazza; one of them hit the radiator with a loud clang. ââ¬ËWhen youve finished preening, could you please go set ashorestairs and sort out soak ups?\r\nAfter Miles had left the room, she tried to untangle her mysterious hair and repair her make-up. She looked awful. Only when she had changed did she realize that she was eating away the wrong bra for her clinging top. After a agitated search, she remembered that the right one was drying in the utility room; she hurried out onto the landing save the ships bell rang. Swearing, she scuttled back to the bedroom. The boy bands music was blaring out of Libbys room.\r\nGavin and Kay had arrived on the dot of eight because Gavin was afraid of what Samantha might say if they turned up late; he could hypothesize her suggesting that they had lost track of time because they were shagging or that they must nonplus had a row. She seemed to think that one of the perks of marriage was that it gave you rights of comment and intrusion over integrity peoples love actives. She also thought that her crass, uninhi secondmented way of talking, especially when drunk, constituted trenchant humour.\r\nââ¬ËHello-ello-ello, go on tongue to Miles, lamen accede back to let Gavin and Kay inside. ââ¬ËCome in, come in. meet to Casa Mollison.\r\nHe kissed Kay on both cheeks and relieved her of the chocolates she was belongings.\r\nâ⬠ËFor us? Thanks real a lot. Lovely to meet you the right way at last. Gavs been keeping you under wraps for far similarly long.\r\nMiles shook the wine out of Gavins hand, then clapped him on the back, which Gavin resented.\r\nââ¬ËCome on through, Samll be down in a mo. Whatll you do to drink?\r\nKay would ordinarily have found Miles rather smooth and over-familiar, but she was immovable to su pass on enouncement. Couples had to mix with each others circles, and manage to go far along in them. This evening represented epoch-making progress in her quest to infiltrate the layers of his lifespan story to which Gavin had never admitted her, and she precious to show him that she was at home in the Mollisons big, smug house, that there was no need to exclude her any more. So she smiled at Miles, asked for a red wine, and admired the spacious room with its simple(a) pine floorboards, its over-cushioned sofa and its mannequind prints.\r\nââ¬ËBeen here for, ooh, getting on for fourteen years, accept tongue to Miles, busy with the corkscrew. ââ¬ËYoure down in Hope Street, arent you? Nice shortsighted houses, some great fixer-upper opportunities down there.\r\nSamantha appeared, smiling without warmth. Kay, who had previously seen her only in an overcoat, noted the clenchedness of her orange top, below which e precise detail of her lacy bra was clearly visible. Her face was even shabbinesser than her leathery chest; her eye make-up was thick and unflattering and her jangling luxurious earrings and high-heeled golden mules were, in Kays opinion, tarty. Samantha taken with(p) her as the considerate of woman who would have raucous girls wickednesss out, and find stripograms hilarious, and trifling drunkenly with e rattlingone elses partner at parties.\r\nââ¬ËHi there, say Samantha. She kissed Gavin and smiled at Kay. ââ¬ËGreat, youve got drinks. Ill have the same as Kay, Miles.\r\nShe turned away to sit down, having already taken standard of the other womans appearance: Kay was small-breasted and heavy-hipped, and had certainly chosen her morose trousers to minimize the size of her bottom. She would have done better, in Samanthas opinion, to wear heels, given the shortness of her legs. Her face was prepossessing enough, with even- mea certaind olive skin, large dark eyes and a generous mouth; but the scrawnyly cropped boys hair and the resolutely flat shoes were undoubtedly pointers to certain sacrosanct Beliefs. Gavin had done it again: he had kaput(p) and picked some other humourless, domineering woman who would make his life a misery.\r\nââ¬ËSo! utter Samantha brightly, raising her glass. ââ¬ËGavin-and-Kay!\r\nShe precept, with satisfaction, Gavins hangdog wince of a smile; but before she could make him squirm more or weasel hush-hush information out of them both to dangle over Shirleys and Maureens heads, the doorbell rang again.\r\nMary appeared fragile and angular, especially beside Mi les, who ushered her into the room. Her tee shirt hung from protruding collar rig outs.\r\nââ¬ËOh, she express, coming to a startled winning into custody on the threshold. ââ¬ËI didnt realize you were having â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËGavin and Kay just dropped in, utter Samantha a little wildly. ââ¬ËCome in, Mary, please ââ¬Â¦ have a drink ââ¬Â¦\r\nââ¬ËMary, this is Kay, tell Miles. ââ¬ËKay, this is Mary Fairbrother.\r\nââ¬ËOh, verbalize Kay, thrown; she had thought that it would only be the four of them. ââ¬ËYes, hello.\r\nGavin, who could tell that Mary had not meant to drop in on a dinner party and was on the point of walking straight back out again, patted the sofa beside him; Mary sat down with a weak smile. He was overjoyed to see her. present was his buffer; even Samantha must realize that her fact brand of prurience would be out or keeping(p) in front of a bereaved woman; plus, the narrow symmetry of a foursome had been broken up.\r\nââ¬Ë How are you? he said quietly. ââ¬ËI was going to give you a ring, actually ââ¬Â¦ thereve been developments with the insurance ââ¬Â¦\r\nââ¬ËHavent we got any nibbles, Sam? asked Miles.\r\nSamantha walked from the room, seething at Miles. The smell of scorch join met her as she opened the kitchen door.\r\nââ¬ËOh pig, shit, shit ââ¬Â¦\r\nShe had completely forgotten the casserole, which had dried out. Desiccated chunks of meat and vegetables sat, forlorn survivors of the catastrophe, on the singed bottom of the pot. Samantha sloshed in wine and stock, chiselling the adhering bits off the pan with her spoon, stirring vigorously, sweating in the heat. Miles squealing laugh rang out from the sitting room. Samantha put on long-stemmed broccoli to steam, drained her glass of wine, ripped open a bag of tortilla chips and a tub of hummus, and upended them into bowls.\r\nMary and Gavin were still conversing quietly on the sofa when she returned to the sitting room, while Mi les was showing Kay a framed windy photograph of Pagford, and giving her a lesson in the towns history. Samantha set down the bowls on the coffee table, poured herself other drink and settled into the armchair, making no elbow grease to join either conversation. It was awfully uneasy to have Mary there; with her grief hanging so heavily around her she might as well have walked in trailing a shroud. Surely, though, she would feed before dinner.\r\nGavin was determined that Mary should stay. As they discussed the in style(p) developments in their ongoing battle with the insurance company, he felt much more relaxed and in control than he usually did in Miles and Samanthas presence. Nobody was break away away at him, or patronizing him, and Miles was absolving him temporarily of all accountability for Kay.\r\nââ¬Ëââ¬Â¦ and just here, just out of sight, Miles was saying, pointing to a spot two inches past the frame of the picture, ââ¬Ëyouve got Sweetlove House, the Fawley place. Big Queen Anne manor house, dormers, stone quoins ââ¬Â¦ stunning, you should visit, its open to the public on Sundays in the summer. Important family locally, the Fawleys.\r\nââ¬Ë precious stone quoins? ââ¬ËImportant family, locally? God, you are an arse, Miles.\r\nSamantha hoisted herself out of her armchair and returned to the kitchen. though the casserole was watery, the burnt flavour dominated. The broccoli was flaccid and nonflavored; the mashed potato cool and dry. Past caring, she decanted it all into dishes and slammed it down on the circular dining-room table.\r\nââ¬ËDinners ready! she called at the sitting-room door.\r\nââ¬ËOh, I must go, said Mary, jumping up. ââ¬ËI didnt mean â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËNo, no, no! said Gavin, in a tone that Kay had never heard before: hearty and cajoling. ââ¬ËItll do you good to eat â⬠kidsll be all right for an hour.\r\nMiles added his apply and Mary looked uncertainly towards Samantha, who was hale to ad d her voice to theirs, then dashed back through into the dining room to lay another setting.\r\nShe invited Mary to sit between Gavin and Miles, because placing her next to a woman seemed to emphasize her husbands absence. Kay and Miles had moved on to discussing loving work.\r\nââ¬ËI dont envy you, he said, serving Kay a large ladle full of casserole; Samantha could see black, scorched flecks in the sauce spreading crossways the unobjectionable plate. ââ¬ËBloody difficult commercial enterprise.\r\nââ¬ËWell, were perennially under-resourced, said Kay, ââ¬Ëbut it can be satisfying, especially when you can feel youre making a difference.\r\nAnd she thought of the Weedons. Terris urine ingest had tested negative at the clinic yesterday and Robbie had had a full week in nursery. The recollection cheered her, counterbalancing her fragile irritation that Gavins attention was still focused tout ensemble on Mary; that he was doing nothing to financial aid ease her conver sation with his friends.\r\nââ¬ËYouve got a daughter, havent you, Kay?\r\nââ¬ËThats right: germanium. Shes sixteen.\r\nââ¬Ë kindred age as Lexie; we should get them together, said Miles.\r\nââ¬Ë fragmentize? asked Samantha delicately.\r\nââ¬ËNo, said Kay. ââ¬ËWe werent married. He was a university boyfriend and we split up not long after she was born.\r\nââ¬ËYeah, Miles and I had barely left university ourselves, said Samantha.\r\nKay did not deal whether Samantha meant to draw a distinction between herself, who had married the big smug father of her children, and Kay, who had been left ââ¬Â¦ not that Samantha could cope that Brendan had left her ââ¬Â¦\r\nââ¬Ëgermaniums taken a Saturday job with your father, actually, Kay told Miles. ââ¬ËAt the new cafe.\r\nMiles was delighted. He took enormous merriment in the idea that he and Howard were so much part of the fabric of the place that everybody in Pagford was committed to them, whether as friend or client, customer or employee. Gavin, who was chewing and chewing on a bit of rubbery meat that was refusing to yield to his teeth, experienced a further lowering in the pit of his stomach. It was news to him that Gaia had taken a job with Miles father. in some manner he had forgotten that Kay possessed in Gaia another efficacious device for anchoring herself to Pagford. When not in the immediate vicinity of her slamming doors, her vicious looks and caustic asides, Gavin tended to stymie that Gaia had any independent existence at all; that she was not obviously part of the uncomfortable backdrop of stale sheets, bad cooking and development grudges against which his relationship with Kay staggered on.\r\nââ¬ËDoes Gaia like Pagford? Samantha asked.\r\nââ¬ËWell, its a bit quiet compared to Hackney, said Kay, ââ¬Ëbut shes settling in well.\r\nShe took a large gulp of wine to washing out her mouth after disgorging the enormous lie. in that respect had been yet another row before deviation tonight.\r\n(ââ¬ËWhats the social occasion with you? Kay had asked, while Gaia sat at the kitchen table, hunched over her laptop, wearing a cover gown over her clothes. Four or v logees of dialog were open on the screen. Kay knew that Gaia was communicating on force with the friends she had left behind in Hackney, friends she had had, in some cases, since she had been in primary school.\r\nââ¬ËGaia?\r\nRefusal to answer was new and ominous. Kay was used to explosions of bile and rage against herself and, particularly, Gavin.\r\nââ¬ËGaia, Im talking to you.\r\nââ¬ËI know, I can hear you.\r\nââ¬ËThen social have the courtesy to answer me back.\r\nBlack dialogue jerked upwards in the boxes on the screen, funny little icons, blinking and waggling.\r\nââ¬ËGaia, please will you answer me?\r\nââ¬ËWhat? What do you want?\r\nââ¬ËIm trying to ask about your day.\r\nââ¬ËMy day was shit. Yesterday was shit. Tomorrow will be shit as well.\r\nâ â¬ËWhen did you get home?\r\nââ¬ËThe same time I always get home.\r\nSometimes, even after all these years, Gaia displayed resentment at having to let herself in, at Kay not being at home to meet her like a storybook mother.\r\nââ¬ËDo you want to tell me why your day was shit?\r\nââ¬ËBecause you dragged me to live in a shithole.\r\nKay willed herself not to guy. Lately there had been screaming matches that she was sure the whole street had heard.\r\nââ¬ËYou know that Im going out with Gavin tonight?\r\nGaia muttered something Kay did not catch.\r\nââ¬ËWhat?\r\nââ¬ËI said, I didnt think he liked taking you out.\r\nââ¬ËWhats that supposed to mean?\r\nBut Gaia did not answer; she simply typed a retort into one of the scrolling conversations on the screen. Kay vacillated, both deficient to press her and afraid of what she might hear.\r\nââ¬ËWell be back around midnight, I expect.\r\nGaia had not responded. Kay had gone to carry for Gavin in the hall.)\r\nâ â¬ËGaias made friends, Kay told Miles, ââ¬Ëwith a girl who lives in this street; whats her name â⬠Narinder?\r\nââ¬ËSukhvinder, said Miles and Samantha together.\r\nââ¬ËShes a clear girl, said Mary.\r\nââ¬ËHave you met her father? Samantha asked Kay.\r\nââ¬ËNo, said Kay.\r\nââ¬ËHes a heart s inhaleon, said Samantha, who was on her fourth glass of wine. ââ¬ËAbsolutely bloody gorgeous.\r\nââ¬ËOh, said Kay.\r\nââ¬ËLike a Bollywood film star.\r\nNone of them, Samantha reflected, had bothered to tell her that dinner was tasty, which would have been simple politeness, even though it was awful. If she wasnt allowed to worrying Gavin, she ought at least to be able to chevvy Miles.\r\nââ¬ËVikrams the only good thing about animation in this godforsaken town, I can tell you, said Samantha. ââ¬ËSex on legs.\r\nââ¬ËAnd his wifes our local GP, said Miles, ââ¬Ëand a parish councillor. Youll be employed by Yarvil rule Council, Kay, are you?\r\nââ¬Ë Thats right, said Kay. ââ¬ËBut I spend more or less of my time in the field. Theyre technically in Pagford Parish, arent they?\r\nNot the Fields, thought Samantha, Oh, dont mention the bloody Fields.\r\nââ¬ËAh, said Miles, with a meaningful smile. ââ¬ËYes, well, the Fields do get to Pagford, technically. Technically, they do. Painful subject, Kay.\r\nââ¬ËReally? Why? asked Kay, hoping to make conversation general, because Gavin was still talking in an undertone to the widow.\r\nââ¬ËWell, you see â⬠this is back in the fifties. Miles seemed to be embarking on a well-rehearsed speech. ââ¬ËYarvil wanted to expand the Cantermill Estate, and instead of building out to the west, where the bypass is now â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËGavin? Mary? More wine? Samantha called over Miles.\r\nââ¬Ë â⬠they were a little bit dishonorable; land was bought without it being very clear what they wanted it for, and then they went and expanded the estate over the parry into Pag ford Parish.\r\nââ¬ËWhy arent you mentioning Old Aubrey Fawley, Miles? asked Samantha. She had, at last, reached that delicious point of intoxication where her tongue became wicked and she became disengaged from fear of consequences, dying(predicate) to provoke and to irritate, seeking nothing but her own amusement. ââ¬ËThe truth is that Old Aubrey Fawley, who used to own all those lovely stone quoits, or whatever Miles was recounting you about, did a deal behind everyones backs â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËThats not fair, Sam, said Miles, but she talked over him again.\r\nââ¬Ë â⬠he flogged off the land where the Fields are built, pocketed, I dont know, must have been a quarter of a mill or so â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËDont talk rubbish, Sam, back in the fifties?\r\nââ¬Ë â⬠but then, once he realized everyone was wee-wee off with him, he pretended he hadnt know it would cause trouble. Upper-class twit. And a drunk, added Samantha.\r\nââ¬ËSimply not true, Im afraid, Miles said firmly. ââ¬ËTo fully understand the conundrum, Kay, you need to jimmy a bit of local history.\r\nSamantha, holding her chin in her hand, pretended to slide her elbow off the table in boredom. Though she could not like Samantha, Kay laughed, and Gavin and Mary broke off their quiet conversation.\r\nââ¬ËWere talking about the Fields, said Kay, in a tone intended to remind Gavin that she was there; that he ought to be giving her moral support.\r\nMiles, Samantha and Gavin realized simultaneously that the Fields was a most tactless subject to advance in front of Mary, when they had been such a bone of contention between Barry and Howard.\r\nââ¬ËApparently theyre a bit of a sore subject locally, said Kay, wanting to force Gavin to express a tantrum, to rope him in.\r\nââ¬ËMmm, he replied, and turning back to Mary, he said, ââ¬ËSo hows Declans football coming on?\r\nKay experienced a powerful stab of fury: Mary might be recently bereaved, but Gavins solicit ousness seemed unnecessarily pointed. She had imagined this evening quite differently: a foursome in which Gavin would have to acknowledge that they really were a checkmate; yet nobody looking on would imagine that they enjoyed a closer relationship than acquaintanceship. Also, the food was horrible. Kay put her knife and fork together with three-quarters of her helping unswayed â⬠an act that was not lost on Samantha â⬠and intercommunicate Miles again.\r\nââ¬ËDid you grow up in Pagford?\r\nââ¬ËAfraid so, said Miles, smiling contently. ââ¬ËBorn in the old Kelland hospital along the road. They closed it in the eighties.\r\nââ¬ËAnd you? â⬠ââ¬Ë Kay asked Samantha, who cut across her.\r\nââ¬ËGod, no. Im here by accident.\r\nââ¬ËSorry, I dont know what you do, Samantha? asked Kay.\r\nââ¬ËIve got my own busi â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËShe sells outsize bras, said Miles.\r\nSamantha got up short and went to fetch another bottle of wine. When she return ed to the table, Miles was telling Kay the seriocomical anecdote, doubtless intended to illustrate how everyone knew everyone in Pagford, of how he had been pulled over in the car one night by a policeman who turned out to be a friend he had cognize since primary school. The snuff out-by-blow re-enactment of the banter between himself and Steve Edwards was tiresomely familiar to Samantha. As she moved around the table replenishing all the glasses, she watched Kays austere expression; evidently, Kay did not find drink-driving a laughing matter.\r\nââ¬Ëââ¬Â¦ so Steves holding out the breathalyser, and Im about to blow in it, and out of nowhere we both start cracking up. His partners got no idea what the hells going on; hes like this â⬠Miles mimed a man turning his head from side to side in astonishment â⬠ââ¬Ëand Steves bent double, pissing himself, because all we can think of is the last time he was holding something steady for me to blow into, which was nigh on c ardinal years ago, and â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËIt was a blow-up doll, said Samantha, unsmiling, dropping back into her seat beside Miles. ââ¬ËMiles and Steve put it in their friend Ians parents bed, during Ians eighteenth- nascenceday party. Anyway, in the end Miles was fined a grand and got three points on his licence, because it was the second time hed been caught over the limit. So that was hysterically funny.\r\nMiles grin remained foolishly in place, like a limp balloon forgotten after a party. A stiff little chill seemed to blow through the temporarily silent room. Though Miles struck her as an almighty bore, Kay was on his side: he was the only one at the table who seemed remotely inclined to ease her passage into Pagford social life.\r\nââ¬ËI must say, the Fields are pretty rough, she said, backsliding to the subject with which Miles seemed most comfortable, and still ignorant that it was in any way inauspicious within Marys vicinity. ââ¬ËIve worked in the inner ci ties; I didnt expect to see that kind of deprivation in a rural area, but its not all that different from London. Less of an ethnic mix, of course.\r\nââ¬ËOh, yes, weve got our share of addicts and wasters, said Miles. ââ¬ËI think thats about all I can manage, Sam, he added, force his plate away from him with a sizeable inwardness of food still on it.\r\nSamantha started to clear the table; Mary got up to help.\r\nââ¬ËNo, no, its fine, Mary, you relax, Samantha said. To Kays annoyance, Gavin jumped up too, chivalrously imperativeness on Marys sitting back down, but Mary insisted too.\r\nââ¬ËThat was lovely, Sam, said Mary, in the kitchen, as they scraped most of the food into the bin.\r\nââ¬ËNo, it wasnt, it was horrible, said Samantha, who was only appreciating how drunk she was now that she was on her feet. ââ¬ËWhat do you think of Kay?\r\nââ¬ËI dont know. Shes not what I expected, said Mary.\r\nââ¬ËShes on the dot what I expected, said Samantha, taking out plates for pudding. ââ¬ËShes another Lisa, if you ask me.\r\nââ¬ËOh, no, dont say that, said Mary. ââ¬ËHe deserves someone nice this time.\r\nThis was a most novel point of view to Samantha, who was of the opinion that Gavins wetness be constant punishment.\r\nThey returned to the dining room to find an shake up conversation in progress between Kay and Miles, while Gavin sat in silence.\r\nââ¬Ëââ¬Â¦ offload right for them, which seems to me to be a pretty self-centred and self-satisfied â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËWell, I think its interesting that you use the word ââ¬Å"responsibilityââ¬Â, said Miles, ââ¬Ëbecause I think that goes to the very heart of the problem, doesnt it? The question is, where exactly do we draw the line?\r\nââ¬ËBeyond the Fields, apparently. Kay laughed, with condescension. ââ¬ËYou want to draw a line neatly between the home-owning middle classes and the lower â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËPagfords full of working-class people, Kay; th e difference is, most of them work. Dyou know what counterbalance of the Fields lives off benefits? Responsibility, you say: what happened to personal responsibility? Weve had them through the local school for years: kids who havent got a single worker in the family; the concept of earning a living is completely foreign to them; generations of non-workers, and were expected to subsidize them â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËSo your resolution is to shunt off the problem onto Yarvil, said Kay, ââ¬Ënot to engage with any of the primal â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËMississippi mud pie? called Samantha.\r\nGavin and Mary took slices with thanks; Kay, to Samanthas fury, simply held out her plate as though Samantha were a waitress, her attention all on Miles.\r\nââ¬Ëââ¬Â¦ the addiction clinic, which is dead crucial, and which certain people are apparently lobbying to close â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËOh, well, if youre talking about Bellchapel, said Miles, frisson his head and smirking, ââ¬Ë I hope youve mugged up on what the succeeder rates are, Kay. Pathetic, frankly, absolutely pathetic. Ive seen the figures, I was going through them this morning, and I wont lie to you, the sooner they close â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËAnd the figures youre talking about are ââ¬Â¦?\r\nââ¬ËSuccess rates, Kay, exactly what I said: the number of people who have actually stopped using drugs, gone clean â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËIm sorry, but thats a very naive point of view; if youre going to judge success purely â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËBut how on earth else are we supposed to judge an addiction clinics success? demanded Miles, incredulous. ââ¬ËAs far as I can tell, all they do at Bellchapel is dole out methadone, which half of their clients use alongside heroin anyway.\r\nââ¬ËThe whole problem of addiction is vastly complicated, said Kay, ââ¬Ëand its naive and simplistic to put the problem purely in terms of users and non ââ¬Â¦\r\nBut Miles was shaking his head, smiling; K ay, who had been enjoying her verbal duel with this self-satisfied lawyer, was curtly angry.\r\nââ¬ËWell, I can give you a very concrete example of what Bellchapels doing: one family Im working with â⬠mother, adolescent daughter and small son â⬠if the mother wasnt on methadone, shed be on the streets trying to pay for her enjoyment; the kids are immeasurably better off â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËTheyd be better off away from their mother, by the sound of it, said Miles.\r\nââ¬ËAnd where exactly would you propose they go?\r\nââ¬ËA decent foster home would be a good start, said Miles.\r\nââ¬ËDo you know how some(prenominal) foster homes there are, against how many kids needing them? asked Kay.\r\nââ¬ËThe best solution would have been to have them adopted at kindred â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËFabulous. Ill hop in my time machine, retorted Kay.\r\nââ¬ËWell, we know a couple who were desperate to adopt, said Samantha, unexpectedly throwing her saddle behind Miles . She would not forgive Kay for the rude outstretched plate; the woman was bolshy and patronizing, exactly like Lisa, who had monopolized every get-together with her political views and her job in family law, despising Samantha for owning a bra shop. ââ¬ËAdam and Janice, she reminded Miles in parenthesis, who nodded; ââ¬Ëand they couldnt get a baby for love nor money, could they?\r\nââ¬ËYes, a baby, said Kay, rolling her eyes, ââ¬Ëeverybody wants a baby. Robbies nearly four. Hes not potty-trained, hes developmentally behind for his age and hes almost certainly had inappropriate exposure to sexual behaviour. Would your friends like to adopt him?\r\nââ¬ËBut the point is, if hed been taken from his mother at birth â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËShe was off the drugs when he was born, and making good progress, said Kay. ââ¬ËShe loved him and wanted to keep him, and she was meeting his of necessity at the time. Shed already raised Krystal, with some family support â⬠ââ¬Ë \r\nââ¬ËKrystal! shrieked Samantha. ââ¬ËOh my God, are we talking about the Weedons?\r\nKay was appall that she had used names; it had never mattered in London, but everyone truly did know everyone in Pagford, it seemed.\r\nââ¬ËI shouldnt have â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nBut Miles and Samantha were laughing, and Mary looked tense. Kay, who had not touched her pie, and had managed very little of the first course, realized that she had drunk too much; she had been sipping wine steadily out of nerves, and now she had committed a prime indiscretion. Still, it was too late to undo that; anger overrode every other consideration.\r\nââ¬ËKrystal Weedon is no advert for that womans mothering skills, said Miles.\r\nââ¬ËKrystals trying her damnedest to hold her family together, said Kay. ââ¬ËShe loves her little brother very much; shes scared hell be taken away â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËI wouldnt presumption Krystal Weedon to look after a boiling egg, said Miles, and Samantha laughed again. ââ¬ËOh, look, its to her credit she loves her brother, but he isnt a cuddly toy â⬠ââ¬Ë\r\nââ¬ËYes, I know that, snapped Kay, remembering Robbies shitty, curmudgeonly bottom, ââ¬Ëbut hes still loved.\r\nââ¬ËKrystal bullied our daughter Lexie, said Samantha, ââ¬Ëso weve seen a different side of her to the one Im sure she shows you.\r\nââ¬ËLook, we all know Krystals had a rough deal, said Miles, ââ¬Ënobodys denying that. Its the drug-addled mother Ive got an issue with.\r\nââ¬ËAs a matter of fact, shes doing very well on the Bellchapel programme at the moment.\r\nââ¬ËBut with her history, said Miles, ââ¬Ëit isnt rocket science, is it, to guess that shell retrogress?\r\nââ¬ËIf you apply that rule across the board, you ought not to have a driving licence, because with your history youre bound to drink and drive again.\r\nMiles was temporarily baffled, but Samantha said coldly, ââ¬ËI think thats a rather different thing.\r\nââ¬ËDo you ? said Kay. ââ¬ËIts the same principle.\r\nââ¬ËYes, well, principles are sometimes the problem, if you ask me, said Miles. ââ¬ËOften whats needed is a bit of common sense.\r\nââ¬ËWhich is the name people usually give to their prejudices, rejoined Kay.\r\nââ¬ËAccording to Nietzsche, said a sharp new voice, making them all jump, ââ¬Ëphilosophy is the biography of the philosopher.\r\nA miniature Samantha stood at the door into the hall, a sonsy girl of around sixteen in tight jeans and a T-shirt; she was eating a smattering of grapes and looking rather pleased with herself.\r\nââ¬ËEveryone meet Lexie, said Miles proudly. ââ¬ËThank you for that, genius.\r\nââ¬ËYoure welcome, said Lexie pertly, and she swept off upstairs.\r\nA heavy silence sank over the table. Without really perspicacious why, Samantha, Miles and Kay all glanced towards Mary, who looked as though she might be on the verge of tears.\r\nââ¬ËCoffee, said Samantha, lurching to her feet. Mary disappeared into the bathroom.\r\nââ¬ËLets go and sit through, said Miles, conscious that the atmosphere was more or less charged, but confident that he could, with a few jokes and his habitual bonhomie, steer everyone back into charity with each other. ââ¬ËBring your glasses.\r\nHis inner certainties had been no more rearranged by Kays arguments than a breeze can move a boulder; yet his feeling towards her was not unkind, but rather pitying. He was the least intoxicated by the constant refilling of glasses, but on scope the sitting room he realized how very full his bladder was.\r\nââ¬ËWhack on some music, Gav, and Ill go and get those choccies.\r\nBut Gavin made no move towards the vertical stacks of CDs in their wily Perspex stands. He seemed to be waiting for Kay to start on him. Sure enough, as soon as Miles had vanished from sight, Kay said, ââ¬ËWell, thank you very much, Gav. Thanks for all the support.\r\nGavin had drunk even more greedily than Kay throughout dinner, enjoying his own offstage celebration that he had not, after all, been offered up as a sacrifice to Samanthas gladiatorial bullying. He face up Kay squarely, full of a courage born not only of wine but because he had been hardened for an hour as somebody important, knowledgeable and supportive, by Mary.\r\nââ¬ËYou seemed to be doing OK on your own, he said.\r\nIndeed, the little he had permitted himself to hear of Kay and Miles argument had given him a pronounced sense of deja vu; if he had not had Mary to distract him, he might have figure himself back on that famous evening, in the resembling dining room, when Lisa had told Miles that he epitomized all that was wrong with society, and Miles had laughed in her face, and Lisa had lost her temper and refused to stay for coffee. It was not very long after, that Lisa had admitted that she was sleeping with an associate partner at her firm and advised Gavin to get tested for chlamydia.\r\nââ¬ËI dont know any of these people, said Kay, ââ¬Ëand you havent done one damn thing to make it any easier for me, have you?\r\nââ¬ËWhat did you want me to do? asked Gavin. He was wonderfully calm, insulated by the imminent returns of the Mollisons and Mary, and by the copious amounts of Chianti he had consumed. ââ¬ËI didnt want an argument about the Fields. I dont give a monkeys about the Fields. Plus, he added, ââ¬Ëits a fragile subject around Mary; Barry was fighting on the council to keep the Fields part of Pagford.\r\nââ¬ËWell, then, why couldnt you have told me â⬠given me a hint?\r\nHe laughed, exactly as Miles had laughed at her. Before she could retort, the others returned like the Magi aim gifts: Samantha carrying a tray of cups, followed by Mary holding the cafetiere, and Miles, with Kays chocolates. Kay saw the flamboyant gold ribbon on the box and remembered how optimistic she had been about tonight when she had bought them. She turned her face away, trying to hide her anger, frantic with the desire to shout at Gavin, and also with a sudden, shocking urge to cry.\r\nââ¬ËIts been so nice, she heard Mary say, in a thick voice that suggested she, too, might have been crying, ââ¬Ëbut I wont stay for coffee, I dont want to be late back; Declans a bit ââ¬Â¦ a bit unsettled at the moment. Thanks so much, Sam, Miles, its been good to, you know ââ¬Â¦ well, get out for a bit.\r\nââ¬ËIll walk you up the â⬠ââ¬Ë Miles began, but Gavin was talking firmly over him.\r\nââ¬ËYou stay here, Miles; Ill see Mary back. Ill walk you up the road, Mary. Itll only take five minutes. Its dark up the top there.\r\nKay was barely breathing; all her being was concentrated in loathing of complacent Miles, tarty Samantha and fragile, drooping Mary, but most of all of Gavin himself.\r\nââ¬ËOh, yes, she heard herself saying, as everybody seemed to look towards her for permission, ââ¬Ëyep, you see Mary home, Gav.\r\nShe heard the front door close and Gavin had gone. Miles was pouring Kays coffee. She watched the pour of hot black liquid fall, and felt suddenly, painfully alive to what she had risked in overthrowing her life for the man walking away into the night with another woman.\r\n'
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